I introduce you one place to hang out - TRAY

12 August 2010: I doubted is this date my birthday? My phone rang non-stop and many friends were asking me to hang out. First is YT, Sam and her friends asking me to go karaoke, then Yvonne them asked me to go limteh but I rejected all as I was feeling lazy to make up and I don't know why. I just don't have the mood to go out. So i set back those outings to next week. Next week is the last week of my school holiday and I am so going to enjoy my holiday life to the fullest! During the night time, Nat invited me to have a chit-chat night at Tray with Nes them and I went for it as Nat is going to leave Kuching on this Sunday. I should go no matter how lazy I was. They say I changed a lot. I was once a clubbing girl who hanged out at the pubs until 3 something in the morning and now... I already complained that 9.30p.m is a late time to hang out. Maybe i'm in the process of becoming a nerd. All that I do is staying at home when school re-opens. I don't dress like a nerd but i behave like one =( Opps, I digressed.. I never went to Tray before and it's a nice place to hang out at night. We chat until 12 something by not knowing that time flies as gossip makes time passes really fast. haha... The environment is awesome for couples. So i'm going to introduce to you guys now =)

Me and my bro bought a headset for my little bro before we went to Tray. See how loving we are. Sorry for the blur-ness as this picture was taken inside the car.

On the way, we saw the Indians having their don't know which festival. Sorry for the sucky picture quality again as the car was moving and I only used my handphone to capture this~

I reached with my brother and Wilfred first as my bro was the driver fetching both of us. My bro was sad for his small amount of coleslaw ordered while his stomach was pretty empty. Then I said: this is the first time I saw a guy who is hungry ordering a coleslaw. This will only make you feel more hungry, suku... haha!

Wilfred with his huge laptop...

Nat,Nes and Yew were late (i'm calling their short names) and Ment came first. Luckily there was a large group of people leaving cause it's really crowded here. Eee... See this filem hantu's main character.. haha

My innocent son - Ah Yew Yew~ haha

The environment here.. Nice right? Very dark and each table is having a candle or something.

You can write whatever you like on this board. So for those bitches out there who like to know some handsome guys, please leave your mobile phone's numbers here. By the way, my bro's friend is working there, he's hot. hahaAnd these are the pictures I have. The others were inside of Nat's camera which haven't been uploaded. Those delicious foods and special drinks' pictures. Try to hang out with your friends next time at Tray, which is considered a special place at Kuching. Or if you want some sexy girls to be your girlfriend... Confess here.. haha..

a truly 'special' outing today~

I never commented on any outings on my blog before... Unlike my friend, Prudence who updated every outing she had with her friends on her blog... Which is quite interesting as she can always update her blog for her readers and can always look back all those good memories.. But my blog is like a place mounting tons of spider webs so I decided to update my blog with an exceptional outing with Sam and YT. How to say exceptional? Cause something interesting happened. After working at my mum's office for the whole morning as a sexy 'secretary' (actually is doing nothing helpful to her), YT came and fetch me along with Sam and I suggested that we could possibly going to a newly opened cafe - Five Loaves Cafe for our lunch. And who knows Sam complained about the drink she ordered and get another cup of sky juice which made her equally unsatisfied. She said she wanted to talk to the tauke nio and we thought she was just joking and she really did. At first, it's a normal conversation between a consumer with an old woman and they suddenly quarreled! They're getting more and more angry.. And trust me.. I can barely saw smokes coming out from them.. PHEW~

Sam was like: And.. that tauke nio was like:The conclusion is: I'm really guilty for suggesting that place =( But hey... I like Sam's behaviour... Not like those fakey bitches... Like.. everything is wonderful... Shit is forever shit, they won't becoming GOLD dumdass 'T'... Muahaha (i'm evil... but.. only towards u ==)

As most of my friends know, imma shopaholic.. yeah... So I can buy anything for almost every outing.. Even a small thing will make me happy.. Since no pictures are taken today, this is what I bought at two places today =):

Two bra strips (we 3 are having the same playboy black strip) and an eyelash glue + double-fold eyelid glue from M.A.C)

an inspirational talk that makes me cry

I'm having the longest holiday ever from Swinburne. Besides working and went to a truly fun KL trip with my crazy friends, I'm nothing but a pui zha bo who always staying in front of my computer screen and logging on facebook. Until today, I realized about something important from watching a video shared through facebook and this talk of the video had actually made me cried. Here's a short summary of it: 很多时候, 事情并不是理所当然的... 没有爸爸的辛苦, 就没有家里的幸福; 没有妈妈的辛苦, 就没有家里的温暖。 你有多久没有正面的看过你的爸爸妈妈了 ? 珍惜眼前人... 尤其是亲人... How true is that! But how come I never realized that? I always living in my own world and I care less about everything. It's good in a way that I actually ignored most of the disappointment happening around me but why that I never asked myself... How frustrated that people get from me when I disregarded their feelings? All that I am thinking of lately is I wana leave Kuching! I hate my family cause I can hardly see my daddy around the house, I hate my mum cause she only cares about money and there's nobody in the house for me to talk with at the time I need them the most. When I call, it's either user busy or something else going on... I hate my friends, cause I always have to wait for them and accepting their anger instead of their apologies when I rushing them to come faster. Just to clarify, I really cannot accept people to be late for any outing cause I ever left by my mum forgetting to fetch me many times and I cried without able to do anything. She said: "you wait me here okay? mummy is going to fetch you at this time" but she always forget about it and left me alone. I'm scared of waiting! I'm scared that you guys wouldn't be appearing.. You guys will forget about me T.T

BUT... In fact, how many times did I answered my parents or friends' phone calls when they need me the most? I also have ignored their calls for some reasons. What can I expect from them? After watching the video, I was like 'waking' up from a bad dream and I realized that life is to short for us to blame this, blame that. I admit that I really don't want to go to Aussie so early, I'm going to miss my family and friends here. But well, since I've already decided, I guess I just have to move on with my plan. Before today, I always thinking of leaving cause I am really dissatisfied with all the things going on here.. Best friends making judgment of me without making clear of the real situations and some family problems.. So i presume that you guys might have to watch this video as well to get some ideas from it.. and here's the link: http://www.facebook.com/#!/video/video.php?v=378800632887&ref=mf I LOVE you guys =) ok, feel like vomiting aster saying this.. haha... a quote from myself: 我不应该责问，为什么爸爸总是不回家？至少我还有眼睛去观查他。我不应该责问，为什么妈妈打包的菜不吃？至少我还有味觉去品尝它。我不应该责问，为什么家里总是吵吵闹闹？至少我还听得见。我应该责问自己的是。。。生活那么完美，为什么我还在埋怨？

getting balder than ever

As everyone knows, i shaved my hair for the sake of getting donation for the SCCS (Sarawak Children Cancer Society) and ridiculously, i haven't update this to my blog until now, which is.. 2 months after being a botak girl! However, i'm never gonna forget the day i went bald - 16th May 2010 (Teacher's Day) and the next day was an accounting test. It's a day which is way more important than my wedding day.. Cause, you know... Divorce is so common in this 21st century and people like me might kahwin at least twice.. Since i'm so popular (Joking). Get back to the point. My facebook wall was flooded that day and people recognized me when i'm hanging out with my friends cause i'm bald though i did wear beany or wig. As long as you're not treating me like a monster as most of the people did, you are free to see my hair. The most question that I get is why would you want to do that? It's being treated a crazy action being done by a girl who cares so much about how she looks. Well, I have no idea. I just know that I almost cried when I looked at the children who are having cancer and they have to be facing the fear of getting hair lost. Just imagine that you actually realized that your hair is getting less and less when you're looking at the mirror ever morning when you wake up. I guess it's a horrifying experience and so, I decided to go bald and just wanted to send a message to those children that getting bald is nothing to be scared of cause i'm doing it with you guys.

So that's the first reason and the second reason was my private reason. My aunt, who is pretty much playing the role of my second mother was having a terrified experience of getting cancer. I am really really regret that I didn't care about her really much when she's getting this disease, I didn't call her up regularly to ask about her condition and I only appeared once at the hospital - few days ago before her death cause i'm scared! I really don't know what to say when she's crying besides me. I'm scared of see-ing her hair lost, i'm scared of see-ing her waking up from bad dreams and all those suffering that I'm never gonna understand. I just feel that i'm useless for there to accompany her. I wanted to visit her for the second time but then i didn't... Cause I need to do my revision for SPM and she passed away that day. That's a HUGE regret in my life and I don't wish to see more people who need to leave this world unwillingly. So i've decided to shave my hair and try to get some donations for those children cause they might be having some financial obstacles and stuffs for their medical fees. My mum said that my aunt don't dare to sleep that night cause she's having a bad dream that she's going to leave all of us and she was holding her hand really tight and said she hasn't ready for all these. Where am I that time? Reading my fucking books? I didn't even went for her funeral. I hope that she knows that i'm doing this not just because of helping the children and create awareness among the public, i'm doing this for HER too and this is all I can do to at least cover some of my guiltiness. Let's move on to the next reason, I wanted to get popular obviously so that I can know a lot of leng zhai who I haven't discovered yet. Just kidding, I wonder why I always wanted to joke while thinking of something sad. Siao cha bo maybe...


And for the rest, just let the pictures talk =)

everyone in my life is fake

When you're encompassing with some problems.. You will automatically know which of your friends or family members are fake.. "Fake" means they are like.. Never existed in your life before but you thought they were! I can't wait for next year to come.. Where I can start my own new life and leaving all those fucking problems here.. What for that I’m still staying in Kuching? It makes no difference at all whether that I’m staying here or Melbourne.. Cause my leaving wouldn’t cause any unhappiness to anyone here.. And I’m sure about that..


I still can joke whenever that I was sad in the previous moments.. Even when my friend and aunty left this world.. But currently.. It’s outside of my capabilities to do so… my face expressions are numb.. I’m not getting angry easily nor getting happy easily.. All that they know is that I’ve get rid of my bad temper but they don’t even care whether I’m sad or happy… As long as they have their own new friends and spouses.. I am nothing but a stranger..


Do you know the feelings of crying but no tears coming out? It’s called numb! All the pressures that my mum gives me is already sufficient for me to commit suicide.. now.. friends problems again.. You say you are happy because I’m leaving on June next year instead of February… I was happy for your words indeed.. Now that I know.. everything is fake.. They never exist right?


I decided to talk alone here like a moron cause I don’t have any mood to do anything.. Law test is on next week and I’m still doing nothing today.. Gonna force myself to study really hard.. Now that I realized.. The best friends of mine are only BOOKS.. nothing more.. That’s what my mum wants me to do.. No good results cannot be her daughter right? I hate asking questions where I wouldn’t get any answers from it.. But what can I do other than this? There isn’t any ears for me anymore.. 2011.. come faster!


Now my condition is like this:


And.. I need this:


Well.. Jokes are desperately needed though you're sad.. haha

The Starting of My Degree LIfe

I've waited for the college to reopen for quite a while already... Holiday was fun but I enjoy studying and socializing at the same time.. There wasn't any new update recently as school re-open means no outing for me except for lunch or dinner with my friends.. I'm not a good blogger i thought.. My blog is not as inspiring as others, not containing any deep feelings either.. Maybe I just meant to be a comedian since I was born? Laugh is the main thing for me to carry on my everyday life I suppose.. I laugh when i'm sad, when i'm angry, when i'm happy.. (Just being a weirdo).. This will be the most boring post in the universe as I really have no idea what to be sharing about here.. I just.. don't feeling happy today I guess..? All that I want to say is don't worry, be happy no matter what happened to you guys.. Life goes on.. Be it a happy life or sucky life.. It's all in your hands.. *cheers*

Happy Chap Goh Meh People!

Chap Goh Meh.. The ending of Chinese New Year.. The ending of taking angpau.. The ending of firecrackers(finally!).. Me and my family never celebrated Chap Goh Meh before until this year! I was quite happy over it but we're celebrating without my dearest brother cause he's in Thailand now.. I miss him so much(as well as his presents! Shhh)..