getting balder than ever

As everyone knows, i shaved my hair for the sake of getting donation for the SCCS (Sarawak Children Cancer Society) and ridiculously, i haven't update this to my blog until now, which is.. 2 months after being a botak girl! However, i'm never gonna forget the day i went bald - 16th May 2010 (Teacher's Day) and the next day was an accounting test. It's a day which is way more important than my wedding day.. Cause, you know... Divorce is so common in this 21st century and people like me might kahwin at least twice.. Since i'm so popular (Joking). Get back to the point. My facebook wall was flooded that day and people recognized me when i'm hanging out with my friends cause i'm bald though i did wear beany or wig. As long as you're not treating me like a monster as most of the people did, you are free to see my hair. The most question that I get is why would you want to do that? It's being treated a crazy action being done by a girl who cares so much about how she looks. Well, I have no idea. I just know that I almost cried when I looked at the children who are having cancer and they have to be facing the fear of getting hair lost. Just imagine that you actually realized that your hair is getting less and less when you're looking at the mirror ever morning when you wake up. I guess it's a horrifying experience and so, I decided to go bald and just wanted to send a message to those children that getting bald is nothing to be scared of cause i'm doing it with you guys.

So that's the first reason and the second reason was my private reason. My aunt, who is pretty much playing the role of my second mother was having a terrified experience of getting cancer. I am really really regret that I didn't care about her really much when she's getting this disease, I didn't call her up regularly to ask about her condition and I only appeared once at the hospital - few days ago before her death cause i'm scared! I really don't know what to say when she's crying besides me. I'm scared of see-ing her hair lost, i'm scared of see-ing her waking up from bad dreams and all those suffering that I'm never gonna understand. I just feel that i'm useless for there to accompany her. I wanted to visit her for the second time but then i didn't... Cause I need to do my revision for SPM and she passed away that day. That's a HUGE regret in my life and I don't wish to see more people who need to leave this world unwillingly. So i've decided to shave my hair and try to get some donations for those children cause they might be having some financial obstacles and stuffs for their medical fees. My mum said that my aunt don't dare to sleep that night cause she's having a bad dream that she's going to leave all of us and she was holding her hand really tight and said she hasn't ready for all these. Where am I that time? Reading my fucking books? I didn't even went for her funeral. I hope that she knows that i'm doing this not just because of helping the children and create awareness among the public, i'm doing this for HER too and this is all I can do to at least cover some of my guiltiness. Let's move on to the next reason, I wanted to get popular obviously so that I can know a lot of leng zhai who I haven't discovered yet. Just kidding, I wonder why I always wanted to joke while thinking of something sad. Siao cha bo maybe...


And for the rest, just let the pictures talk =)