Preparation for Chinese New Year's Reunion Dinner

Tomorrow me and my whole family will be sitting together to eat at the dining table.. So excited about it as i always eat alone there and 'dining table' are two very lonely words for me.. My mum told me that she might be busying over her work and i was really upset.. As i am Devy, i am so going to buy all the ingredients needed for steamboat, spaghetti and mushroom soup.. perhaps? ALONE... Since no one is free in this family except me.. I shouldn't complaint over here.. I SHOULD really do this.. Who knows i might be the Chef of my family huh? I think they wouldn't disappoint me cause everything is done for their dinner right? These are what they are going to be seen on the dining table (phewit! not as delicious as these of course):
As every girl usually does... Chinese New Year is just an event or excuse for them to shop for more clothes and masks to make them look super 'leng lui' on CNY but becoming 'fei po' again after CNY... So do I... Okay, i admit it... I bought several masks from variety of brands to see which brand makes my face smoother, fairer and.. make me feel alive? I will recommend to you from all the masks below after i become the 'hamster of the experiment' and i will also stick to that brand of course:

Next post coming up: Chinese New Year Vs. Valentine's Day

I am going to tell you some interesting facts about both of the events and PROVE to you that Chinese New Year > Valentine's Day.. haha!

Although i support CNY & totally oppose Valentine's Day, this thing really cute le.. haha

But I hold to my stand that this one nicer cause I'm watering it everyday! haha

Accompany My Friend to Study

I went to Bing at Padungan branch on the next day after the Wow Book roadshow was finished with Suk Yee, Yvonne and Lesley.. We accompany Suk Yee to study for her Accounting.. I also get the chance to receive my salary.. I get RM200 something for the week.. Yay..? haha.. The MAIN purpose should be teaching her Accounting but we all ended up playing with the crazy photos shooting.. erm... Actually it's expected... haha.. We've done a lot of crazy stuffs... Here's another link.. Cause I don't know what is happening to my stupid blog... I can't upload any photo or I can only upload limited photos.. By the way, Facebook is my second blog.. I can say that as well.. cause I upload every moment of my life into my Facebook's albums.. http://www.facebook.com/home.php?#!/album.php?page=2&aid=44599&id=1033788626

Finding A Holiday Job To Spend My Boring Holiday

Swinburnians are having a long period holiday FINALLY... I am so happy that I can finally relax myself after finishing so many stressful exams and assignments... But then I suddenly feel very boring and it's impossible for me to shopping everyday right? My mum would kill me off.. So, i decided to find a job for myself... And.. i finally worked at Mal's shop for only 3 days... A horrified experience, so just skip it.. 'HAHA'... After i quiting the job, Cindi is asking me to go to work as WOW book promoter for only 7 days.. My brother said "it's better for you to work for a roadshow as when you feel like quiting, it already comes to an end".. I was like.. wtf...? But what he said is true also.. haha.. So i worked as one of the Wow Book promoters at The Spring for 7 days.. I didn't expect it to be so fun... I dun feel like im working, it's like playing everyday with Cindi, the supervisor and all the bosses.. We all get so crazy.. Then the clowns for the events there, meeting with Kenny Sia (my favourite blogger), making new friends... All these things make my working experience so so fun and unforgettable.. And... Amazingly, you'll get really really satisfied and contented when you sold out a book.. Not bluffing at all.. It's not the commissions that matter.. It's the contenting feeling and doing charity that make me feel like... 'I am so going to PROMOTE it to everyone'.. haha.. Actually there are still a lot of photos taken.. This page would be too messy if I upload them all.. So follow this link if you feel like want to take a look at it.. http://www.facebook.com/home.php?#!/album.php?aid=49328&id=1033788626

This is what I've been selling for one week (charity discount book)

Photo with Kenny Sia...

We forced the clown to make them for us.. nice right? haha

This clown very bad one.. He always disturb the kids..

Happy NEW year? or SAD new year?? how 2010 will be for my life?

So many friends asking me out to countdown for new 2010 year... But i rejected all of them... I didn't mean that they are not my best friends BUT all i want for my new year eve is both of my most important friends, Xin Yi & Yvonne... Nevertheless, they are not thinking of the same way with me... right? Xin Yi has her own friends to celebrate with & Yvonne has her own spouse... I free out my night for them as i think they will ask me out on new year eve night sincerely, not like others who only want to have fun and asking me out as their 'responsibility' (obviously)... Unfortunately, I am WRONG... They do not need me at all.. I am not angry with them but i am truly disappointed... really really disappointed... So, i decided to stay alone at home tonight... Funny huh? Everyone is so excited for the new year party, Travilion will also be fulled of people as how I evidenced myself for the previous years... Now i am alone because of them.. haha... I don't care anymore.. as 2009 & 2010 are the same for me.. It's all about the changing of a new calender... Nothing else... Life goes on as usual... and it doesn't matter for me.. All that I realised the day before 2010 year is... I will NEVER trust any friend... Many people thought that I am surrounded by friends all the time... The thruth is NOT... Why things always happen on the opposite way as how people see them? hmm...

too many OBSTACLES!!! Pls go away from me! ><

It had been AGES that i didn't log in my blog... i forgot my password and i have to reset it just now.. >< too many things happening recently... & as usual for Swinburnians, we have to deal with a lot of assignments and exams.... so, i can only update it now...

After Yvonne case, my mood has turned down & lots of things are happening continuously on me and my best friend, Xin Yi.. In settling the misunderstandings between me & Yvonne, we have cried so hardly on that night.. Everyone thought that we have settled the whole thing and as long as Yvonne will have her happy vacation, everything will be alright... So i just followed what they wanted me to say & let it 'settle' on the surface... I didn't sleep well that night cause i was telling lies the whole night, honestly... I know nobody really cares about what i feel, so i just followed their wills to do what i dislike to do... This is just the small case if compared to what happened to Xin Yi & me these few days after Yvonne went to Korea...

Just the day after that night, i knocked a car accidentally... I was moody or sleepy while i was driving.. i cant really remember anymore cause i think i'm getting blurer & blurer each day... everything just get messed up.. i dont know what to do, how to do, what is happening....??? i have so many question marks in my head...

Obstacles just keep on happening to me... Just after my parents helped me to pay that guy who i knocked the car belongings to him, both of my brothers fight... i shouted at them to make them stop until i have no more voice, they just wouldn't listen to me at all! i still remember that las time when my parents went to shopping, they fight until i can see all the bloods around my house... i was crying alone mopping all the bloods... when i was small, my daddy also always beat us up... i dont understand, why my family members never talk well but they only can use physical attack to settle everything? I called my friend hoping him can come and fetch me but when his car was near my house, my mum ordered me to drive myself as she already felt so embarrased to be in this kind of family.. she said she doesn't want other people to know about this anymore... but i just knocked on a car the night before, I really need a lot of courage to drive again.. I didnt thought secondly and just grab the car key and tell my mum that i dont want to be in this family... i will leave as soon as i know how to earn money sufficient for the living of myself.. cause they never changed! i always hoping that they will change as time passes.. but why everything is still the same when i was small until now? by then i thought of all is my father's fault.. if not because of him, we wouldnt be suffering like this... if not because of him, i wouldnt dont dare to even think back my past memories... if not because of him, my mum wouldnt be thinking of divorcing & leave us last time... but.... dont now why... i feel so hurt when he shouted at the middle of the night, walk here walk there thinking of his works just to maintain our lives... i am very worry that he will get depressed because of this... i'm having nightmares that this family will broke some day... i do not want this to be happening on me! this is the nightmares that i am most scared with...

At the same day, i received a message from Xin Yi... Her shop was burned out... i was really really really worry about her and i dun even have time to think about my family problems... after i kept on persuading her, she finally agreed to go out with me n lesley... we were glad that she is willing to share her problems with us... she never dropped a tear for that case... she is the toughest girl i have ever met... i was so depressed to see her like that... i dont know how to help her but i can only talk about those craps which i dont even think can comfort her... i hate it when i see my friend suffering without anything that i can helped with... what should i do now... why so many things happening at once? God, do not forget that we are just 18 years old... how can we able to face with all those difficulties? especially Xin Yi, i do not want her to leave me by quiting Swinburne... she is my best friend ever! i really hope that everything will be okay after i wake up tomorrow.. okay...? haiz...

a fun presentation~

Today, i have another group presentation with mia and tan wee once again... all that i can say is the presentation was the funniest presentation we ever present to other people... i was the first who went up to the front and when teacher asked me where my group members were, i pretended to be blur blur like that... after i prepared all the materials that we needed to use and also the slides, i play 'who let the dogs out' song loudly... Then, mia and tan wee started to catwalk to the front by hugging a dog soft toy... everyone was laughing hard at that time... along the presentation, we also make some actions and jokes to make our classmates laugh so that they would not be feeling bored during the long presentation.. however, parts of them were not paying attention during my presentation parts and i was quite upset.. so, i just briefly read through everything at the back parts.. i believe that no one will present well when there is nobody who listen to his or her speech including me... overall, it was a fun presentation though.. there are some pictures of me and my group members... enjoy... =)

complicated feeling rushing through my mind~

Think my blog is going to grow spider web soon.. I'm trying to keep it updated but i just can't spend my time for blogging as there were lots of assignments & exams for the past few busy weeks... Today, I promise myself that I MUST update it no matter how.. i miss it too much.. Let me just summarise my feeling & things that were happening for these few days..

I don't know why that i'm started to think about my friend & my aunty just now... I just can't control my mind... maybe i was too boring...? I dreamt of them yesterday night.. weird right? So i thought... a person who leaves this world might not be forgotten after some while like the ending of a movie always does.. Instead, we will miss him or her even more as time passes... However, dream should be separated from the reality & i know bout that... Life just keep going on no matter how...

Today i received a message from Mia... she realised that her laptop has been stolen when she wake up after she was taking an afternoon nap upstairs of her house.. her house has been broke into by a burglary... she sounds sad but i don't know how to comfort her... all that i can say to her is that she is considered as the lucky one as she was not hurted by the DAMN burglary... she just passed her 18th birthday & this is happening to her now..

Today is Sunday right? i didn't even notice about it as everyday is the same day for me... weekends & weekdays make no difference to me... my family members wouldn't spend their time with me on any days.. for them, this world is about work & money... my heart felt pain when i saw all my friends' status stating that 'I have a great time with my family today!', 'Sunday is such a nice day for family', 'I will go out with my mum later'... bla bla bla.. all those are hurting words for me...

Anyways, i should also share some joyful moments of mine to you guys.. below are some pictures of Mia's 18th birthday celebration on last Friday night... we were having steamboat together at BDC... it was a fun night though...