The REAL M3~

Rest in Peace, Ah Jie! =')

2011-03-05T21:33:00.000-08:00

How could you... be the second friend who letft me? When Kevin's gone, I promised myself that I have to stay strong and face the reality. Same goes to me now! I wouldn't cry non-stop for you. I wouldn't be sad to face the truth that you actually passed away just after we brought 1000 bird cranes for you, just after we left the hospital. I am happy that your soul is relieved by now. You might be struggling hard for your life to wake up just not to disappoint everyone around you these few days. You chose your path and we will pray for you. Please promise us that you will live better at the other world. I won't go to your funeral and don't you try to earn my tears. Rest in Peace, Ah Jie! I would like you to be my friend once again in your next re-born. =') 安心的上路吧！不需要留念在世的这一切了。。。

Lee Family's Dinner

2011-02-14T05:23:00.000-08:00

11 Feb 2011: I went to this dinner whereby there's so many Lee's relatives that I never met before with my parents, cousin and grandma during Chinese New Year.. I didn't publish posts for neither CNY nor Valentine's Day cause they were just usual to me. CNY is just making people feeling fat and Valentine's Day is just making people feeling lonely.. Therefore, they aren't really two good festive to be celebrated.. just kidding, but seriously.. lol

"lao sheng"

Huat arh!

Abalone~

Ham + chicken + vege = Yummy!

Shark fin soup~Crunchy little piggy~

Piggy's head.. gelik!I wonder why this fish smells so smelly.. eww.. but it tastes ok..

And finally... the dessert.. nice!

Me and cousin~
Grandma getting her angpau~

F&N working experience

2011-02-05T05:51:00.000-08:00

23 Jan - 1 Feb: First time working as a F&N promoter at Everrise.. Many things fucked us up but it's still a fun experience working with 3 sohai.. Richard, Jee and Yen Tyng.. lol.. The only chance for me to capture photos as memory was during a rainy day where we can't work at all as the rain water was pouring everywhere.. They were really sohai.. haha

Sohai Richard was really wet.. tsk tsk~

And.. he's seriously a stalker =)

Jee's place of protection.. lol

Noob Jee!

Back to the 70's

2011-01-12T19:49:00.000-08:00

7 Jan 2011 (I think... kinda forget the date.. lol): Went to an event themed "Back to the 70's" with Elayne.. Met Jane there as well.. Some people were really looking alike with those 70's people.. Argh~ Some of the posts couldn't be updated such as the reunion dinner with primary school friends and stuffs.. Gotta take more photos next time =)

The only picture of me and Elayne but she asked me to delete this cause we both look weird...lol

The vain me~

Elayne, Jane and me.. Jane looked like a girl from the 70's the most!
Getting lots of chocolates that day.. My pimples grow because of these! T.T

Happy New Year 2011 peeps!

2011-01-12T05:25:00.001-08:00

1 Jan 2011: It's year 2011... A brand new year.. I've got only one wish for this year.. To be HAPPIER.. I believe that it will be a better year than my sucky 2010.. =p

This is the first time that I had my new year eve dinner with my family but not with friends.. I joined my parents to a church dinner. I introduce you uncle Frankie with his band - the 'old boys gang'. lol

The Managing Director of the Koperasi Hijau (don't know what's that) was having his 72 years old birthday and he gave us the red eggs (Chinese tradition)

After the BBQ dinner with my family, i went to Tray with Agnes and then Travilion.

Traffic jame at Travilion is making Agnes crazy.. The cars were not moving at all! Gosh~! Too many clubbers in Kuching...

I still can smile cause i'm not the driver.. Guess i'll be scolding lots of foul words if I were! lol
After that, we went for some beers.. Agnes pek chek cause there's only two of us... Like two pity shits due to no any parking space available at Travilion.. lol
I drank until vomit that night.. Shouldn't do that anymore.. Felf dizzy and shitty ><

Outing With People Who I Forgot to Contact.. opps

2010-12-28T04:05:00.000-08:00

26 December 2010: Aunty Maggie and Max suddenly called me 'early in the morning' and i was awake. When I viewed the time of the message received and the missed calls, I realised that it was actually 1pm in the afternoon. Gosh, I overslept AGAIN. Holiday is all about sleep, sleep and sleep for me. When I called back, they were already having lunch at Agnes' shop. Sien. Should be meeting Agnes if I could wake up earlier. So they came to fetch me after their lunch and treat me with Sushi King at the Spring while we supposed to be swimming at Sarawak Club but due to raining.... No choice but the Spring again... Arh... I miss those childhood time with her where she always brought me out, bought me lots of stuffs and so on. Thanks Aunty Maggie and Max to be there with me when you guys know that there's something going on to my family =)

It's happy hour of Sushi King, got 20% discount ^^

Aunty Maggie found out that the green tea + red bean paste dessert looks yummy in the menu so we ordered this. But in fact, it tastes sucky =X

Sashimi oh Sashimi... You've always been my favourite =)

After eating lots of sushi, me and Max decided to watch two movies in a row:

Narnia 3. Prince Caspian was hot. lol

And... Rapunzel... a very funny cartoon. We found out that Rapunzel was nicer than the first show. lol

We were not ready for the shows, so we didn't brought any jacket to keep us warm. And we ended up shivering in the cinema. Furthermore, I was wearing a sleeveless, short dress. This is what I have to pay for my hiao-ness. LOL.

And after that, we went Richmond for our dinner/supper. A tiring but fun day with Max ;) P.S. Don't be jealous, my dear Agnes.. hahaha

hohoho~ Merry Christmas! =')

2010-12-24T20:04:00.000-08:00

25 December 2010: Yup, countdown for Christmas with my secondary school friends. A fun night... Well, at least a night where I can throw away all my problems and countdown for Christmas~ We had our dinner at gasoline, the Spring and went to pub/lounge for some beers.. BEERS~ I have been leaving you for quite some time.. Miss you much.. hehe.. Merry Christmas everybody ^^

Yea~ The rockers (lml o.O lml)

The boys~
Me and Ment Ment~

Me with Hock Hua~

Yew Ling~

Nes Nes~

1 go 1 go~~~

Naughty Nes..

Merry Guinness instead of Merry Christmas~

Fireworks at Basaga~

Yew Ling's Christmas present for us.. sweet =)

Feel like being a sea lion and jump through the circle.. okay, i'm insane ><

Me and Fen under the Spring's Christmas tree =)

Drinks at Gasoline:

From my birthday onwards, I never felt happy even for one single day. But i felt stress-less yesterday night during the countdown. It's probably the beer that makes me calm, or it's probably being with my beloved friends who are always there for me whenever i'm sad. I want to start over my life. A new facebook account for me soon... I will try my best to solve my family problems, not just store myself inside my room whole day without eating or what anymore. I promise, the old Devy will be gone soon, and the new one shall begin =)

bye bye 'socializing'

2010-12-23T03:43:00.000-08:00

23 December 2010: ARGH! Lots of shitty things going on to my life recently.. Even though I created this blog because of not knowing how to share my sad feeling over the death of my friend, I never regretted for creating it... This is the only place where I can really think of what is happening to my life... I could barely remember those sad memories after writing all of 'em out while trying to fix things out. There has been a family crisis which made me really really stress. Yea, every time when i'm having my "emo times", there always been my family problems. I feel shitty, i feel fucking, and sometimes... I do admit that I don't even willing to accept to be in this family.

Why do i titled this post as bye bye socializing? Cause I deleted my facebook account. It's crazy, a person as active as me in fb has actually deleted my account. Facebook is the place where rumours start, it is also a place where I will be exposing to so many painful truths like no other places. The more a person knows, the more the person get hurts. I shall just leave it and live in my own happier life. If not because of one status, I wouldn't be as emo as now. If and only if I didn't saw that status, I really wouldn't know that in fact, my gang hates me so so much and they even felt sia soi for a useless friend like me. Hmm.. Guess the only way for me is to get away from you guys and I shouldn't be disturbing you guys life anymore. I will not appear in you guys facebook or msn ever again, so that I don't have the chance to ruin your lives. I know.... I am not happy at all, that is the reason why I shouldn't affecting you guys moods too. Sorry for being you guys shitty friend for these while. ><

Next, dumping all these damn fucking things behind and ready for the countdown for both Christmas and New Year.. Let's pray that I will have a happier life throughout the year 2011! All that I want is a happy life. I just want to smile.... Like before... Like the old Devy =)

Mid-term break

2010-10-17T07:23:00.000-07:00

17 October 2010: Having my mid semester break for only one week and the rationale of the holiday is actually for us to catch up our syllabus but unfortunately… I didn’t touched even one page of my book until today (Sunday)! And… tomorrow I have to get back to school =( I can foresee my life after this one week break: exams, assignments due date and so on.. All the best to myself and hope that I’ll change my MALAS attitude in order to get good grades… Let’s do a summarise for my short holiday:

I have been vomiting non-stop for the first 4 days of the holiday and even went to hospital for injection on the night where i was having a fever (just put a cartoon to aid with your imagination in order not to disgust you):

My Friday and Saturday were unforgettable... Only one word to describe: ROCK!

Friday night went out with my crazy old friends gang where we eat, drink and stroll for the whole night. Saturday morning I drove to 15th mile to find my grandpa which somehow, I felt proud of myself cause I never drove so far before (lame):

Speed comes before safety if I wanted to reach somewhere far in a shorter period of time, this shouldn't be done by anyone at anywhere and anytime (fear factor)

After that, I chia my grandma for a Sugarbun lunch since she said it's been a long time that she hasn't touched any fried chicken (healthy granny)

During the night, we went to the Commercial Center for our fund raising churches association dinner... The foods don't really fit my appetite but I enjoyed the performances quite a lot especially the guy who was imitating Michael Jackson. MJ is still the rock-est star in my heart, kinda touched watching his classic moon walk.. lolAND... Sunday! zzz.. got class tomorrow morning.. Don't feel like going to bed, don't feel like going to school.. but no choice.. bye~ ><

Happy Mooncake Festival everyone!!!

2010-09-25T17:29:00.000-07:00

22 September 2010: Phew~ gotta use a really short time to post this thing since I have a Macroeconomics exam tomorrow but during this week... I enjoyed as if I don't have anything to worry about.. All those exams, assignments and presentations that are coming soon! However, that's what I like about my college life... College life means nothing to be remembered if there isn't anything for us to worry about and complete one by one right? lol... So me and my friends celebrated this festival for the whole day... It's kinda over I know... But I just can't stop myself from going out.. Gonna study really hard today! Good luck for myself and also those who's heading for macro exam tomorrow =)

During the afternoon, I had my 'extravagance lunch' at Frenz' & Family(Jalan Song) with my college friends (Chea Ying, Yew Yee and Mia) As we all spent quite an amount of money over our lunch, we treat it as our moon-cake festival celebration lunch.. haha

First of all: Happy Mooncake Festival to you guys! My house is having lots of mooncakes as you know...... business people are kepo one.. My parent's business friends gave them.. haha

To show how 'extravagance' our lunch is (joking) - at Frenz' & Family:

Chea Ying's grill fish... Looks nice!
My fish & chips... Didn't expect it to be this HUGE size...

Mia with her spaghetti~
Mia's spaghetti looks nice and taste nice too~
A cha bo who just had her hair cut... lol~
Yew Yee's spghetti! Looks really nice!My cup of Cappucino~ Imma coffee lover~

My big size fish & chips~ ><

At night, we all meet at Yew Ling's house and all following my car to Padungan to search for some cute tanglung's. We also had our supper/dessert at Memories:

Me and Ah Yew ordered Black Forest ice-cream~

Ah Tak's supper.. That's a lot! haha

Ment and Agnes ordered this chocolate crunch~
Spongebob's tanglung at the 4th one! haha.. cute~

it's time for me to keep quiet~

2010-09-07T05:52:00.000-07:00

Went to Damai with my crazy gang last weekend... Thought it would be a fun and unforgettable trip for all of us.. Unfortunately, I guess it's only for them but not me =( I do have fun with them... Drinking beers, chatting, laying down at the beach and enjoying the beautiful night sky glittering with stars~ But I really don't know why I felt unhappy behind all my laughter... Something stucked and kept inside my heart for a long time but I still don't know how to express it though I was drunk... But I can't say much here... Cause I don't want to have any misunderstandings with my friends, either college friends or whoever.. I'm just purely unhappy but can't talk to anyone.. However, everything will be okay soon.. I always believe! =)

Slimming Sanctuary~

2010-09-03T02:14:00.000-07:00

02 August 2010: My college is re-opening for about 2 weeks already but I'm still living in my own holiday hallucination... I always been super blur + often day dreaming recently which is not my STYLE at all (I should at least make people sense that I'm threatening! jk)... Once going through so many stupid things, I really hope that I can walk out from my 2 months wonderful holiday dream soon! This Thursday(the date of posting) - me, Sam and Elayne went to Slimming Santuary for our appointments made earlier on but unfortunately this 'laku' centre just always have full appointment! So they only can make it for us yesterday... I can see that the facial result was awesome from their fairer, smoother and smaller pores' skin but the slimming session was... quite sucky, I would say~ The good news from the fat analysis that I obtained were: I'm taller 5cm now (woohoo!), my BMI is in average level, upper and lower parts of my body is still normal... BUT...! My tummy was overweight and my muscle is not enough =(

Nothing to do on the first day of schooling.. opps, fugly~

I waited for a long time and feel like sleeping here... It's so comfortable but no other photos were taken since then... Cause we're not allowed to bring in our bags...

My lunch~Conclusion for the post: I will make myself 'conscious' and will not to blurry things anymore(I try)...! and will make an effort to work really hard to get the best result after coming back from my weekend Damai trip! Can't wait for it! =)

重出江湖

2010-08-20T22:20:00.000-07:00

19 August 2010: First time using a Chinese title for my blog update. In case you don't know how to read Chinese or your Chinese is as noob as me, it means teng jumped back. What the hell is that? I don't know cause it just an anonymous translation from Google. ><>I would like to take this opportunity to apologise to Yvonne, Xix and Lesley. Cause I couldn't make it for those outings =(

Before we went to K-Box at The Spring, we went to have our lunch. I can't remember the name of this cafe.

Leng lui Sam with her hokkien mee

My hot Neslo and Elayne's green bean soup. Sam said these are guai kia's drinks. Lol

Pineapple fried rice - one of my favourites.

Sexy Elayne with her black pepper rice.

K-Box~
I've learn a method of make up. See my ugly nose became so noticeable under dark light. Lit your nose with some white shiny eyeshadow.
Emo girl singing song~
Bro and Wilfred the boy~
Elayne was so shy. So she didn't manage to sing much songs. Kolian ar. haha
This pic is super dark!
Sam and Elayne~
Ngaiti. I was so hiao. I didn't notice that my dress was so short.
Me again~
The 'haven't ready pose'...
I would like to show you guys two photos taken by my bro, the photographer... I'm so in love with the second picture.. haha

a meaningful saturday

2010-08-14T21:31:00.000-07:00

14 August 2010: Imma primary school's art tuition teacher today... Yeah~ Okay, shut up! Cause I know exactly what are you guys thinking of... It's in all probability that you guys are thinking of :"duh~ Devy the ah lian? Confirm she don't even know a piece of art, all that she can draw and colour are pieces of shits" "Devy? That siao cha bo who dislike kids to the max?" Hey Hey Hey... First, I definitely have the sense of art~! Secondly, I like little boys cause they are more energetic and adorable, not like little girls who only know how to draw draw draw like suku kia. I evidenced it today. Trust me. I did this job just to gain experience of how to deal with kids and to develop my motherly love but sadly, there was a lakia who knows how to speak mandarin working there too and he always get the chance to teach those cute little guys while I can only teach those girls. Eric (my tauke) asked me to mark one of the girl's drawing. I gave her 85%. How sweet am I. The bread she drew was... erm... unpleasant... in a good manner of speaking. haha.I didn't took any photos there cause it's still considered a working place though there were only foolish kids and accordingly I shouldn't be "catching snakes". Did I said foolish? NO! I mean... unwise. haha. When I went home, my parents asked me to go to a Japanese restaurant with them and a supplier of their business so I did as an obedient daughter despite the fact that I was really tired...!

We went Rakute for our Japanese dinner~

These 3 little fishes were my daddy's favourite but eww.. They don't taste nice ><

Tempura.. Yum Yum =)
Erm. nothing special actually. Just the usual fried chicken but I love the salad.
This dolly fish is.... ulala! Lip-smacking!
Garlic rice~
I don't know what is this dish called. It tastes kinda okay~
Sashimi! Me and my bro's favourite =DThe conclusion is: tua pui cha bo is rubbing her belly... Satisfaction!

I introduce you one place to hang out - TRAY

2010-08-12T21:26:00.000-07:00

12 August 2010: I doubted is this date my birthday? My phone rang non-stop and many friends were asking me to hang out. First is YT, Sam and her friends asking me to go karaoke, then Yvonne them asked me to go limteh but I rejected all as I was feeling lazy to make up and I don't know why. I just don't have the mood to go out. So i set back those outings to next week. Next week is the last week of my school holiday and I am so going to enjoy my holiday life to the fullest! During the night time, Nat invited me to have a chit-chat night at Tray with Nes them and I went for it as Nat is going to leave Kuching on this Sunday. I should go no matter how lazy I was. They say I changed a lot. I was once a clubbing girl who hanged out at the pubs until 3 something in the morning and now... I already complained that 9.30p.m is a late time to hang out. Maybe i'm in the process of becoming a nerd. All that I do is staying at home when school re-opens. I don't dress like a nerd but i behave like one =( Opps, I digressed.. I never went to Tray before and it's a nice place to hang out at night. We chat until 12 something by not knowing that time flies as gossip makes time passes really fast. haha... The environment is awesome for couples. So i'm going to introduce to you guys now =)

Me and my bro bought a headset for my little bro before we went to Tray. See how loving we are. Sorry for the blur-ness as this picture was taken inside the car.

On the way, we saw the Indians having their don't know which festival. Sorry for the sucky picture quality again as the car was moving and I only used my handphone to capture this~

I reached with my brother and Wilfred first as my bro was the driver fetching both of us. My bro was sad for his small amount of coleslaw ordered while his stomach was pretty empty. Then I said: this is the first time I saw a guy who is hungry ordering a coleslaw. This will only make you feel more hungry, suku... haha!

Wilfred with his huge laptop...

Nat,Nes and Yew were late (i'm calling their short names) and Ment came first. Luckily there was a large group of people leaving cause it's really crowded here. Eee... See this filem hantu's main character.. haha

My innocent son - Ah Yew Yew~ haha

The environment here.. Nice right? Very dark and each table is having a candle or something.

You can write whatever you like on this board. So for those bitches out there who like to know some handsome guys, please leave your mobile phone's numbers here. By the way, my bro's friend is working there, he's hot. hahaAnd these are the pictures I have. The others were inside of Nat's camera which haven't been uploaded. Those delicious foods and special drinks' pictures. Try to hang out with your friends next time at Tray, which is considered a special place at Kuching. Or if you want some sexy girls to be your girlfriend... Confess here.. haha..

a truly 'special' outing today~

2010-08-09T04:53:00.000-07:00

I never commented on any outings on my blog before... Unlike my friend, Prudence who updated every outing she had with her friends on her blog... Which is quite interesting as she can always update her blog for her readers and can always look back all those good memories.. But my blog is like a place mounting tons of spider webs so I decided to update my blog with an exceptional outing with Sam and YT. How to say exceptional? Cause something interesting happened. After working at my mum's office for the whole morning as a sexy 'secretary' (actually is doing nothing helpful to her), YT came and fetch me along with Sam and I suggested that we could possibly going to a newly opened cafe - Five Loaves Cafe for our lunch. And who knows Sam complained about the drink she ordered and get another cup of sky juice which made her equally unsatisfied. She said she wanted to talk to the tauke nio and we thought she was just joking and she really did. At first, it's a normal conversation between a consumer with an old woman and they suddenly quarreled! They're getting more and more angry.. And trust me.. I can barely saw smokes coming out from them.. PHEW~

Sam was like: And.. that tauke nio was like:The conclusion is: I'm really guilty for suggesting that place =( But hey... I like Sam's behaviour... Not like those fakey bitches... Like.. everything is wonderful... Shit is forever shit, they won't becoming GOLD dumdass 'T'... Muahaha (i'm evil... but.. only towards u ==)

As most of my friends know, imma shopaholic.. yeah... So I can buy anything for almost every outing.. Even a small thing will make me happy.. Since no pictures are taken today, this is what I bought at two places today =):

Two bra strips (we 3 are having the same playboy black strip) and an eyelash glue + double-fold eyelid glue from M.A.C)

an inspirational talk that makes me cry

2010-07-24T05:53:00.000-07:00

I'm having the longest holiday ever from Swinburne. Besides working and went to a truly fun KL trip with my crazy friends, I'm nothing but a pui zha bo who always staying in front of my computer screen and logging on facebook. Until today, I realized about something important from watching a video shared through facebook and this talk of the video had actually made me cried. Here's a short summary of it: 很多时候, 事情并不是理所当然的... 没有爸爸的辛苦, 就没有家里的幸福; 没有妈妈的辛苦, 就没有家里的温暖。你有多久没有正面的看过你的爸爸妈妈了 ? 珍惜眼前人... 尤其是亲人... How true is that! But how come I never realized that? I always living in my own world and I care less about everything. It's good in a way that I actually ignored most of the disappointment happening around me but why that I never asked myself... How frustrated that people get from me when I disregarded their feelings? All that I am thinking of lately is I wana leave Kuching! I hate my family cause I can hardly see my daddy around the house, I hate my mum cause she only cares about money and there's nobody in the house for me to talk with at the time I need them the most. When I call, it's either user busy or something else going on... I hate my friends, cause I always have to wait for them and accepting their anger instead of their apologies when I rushing them to come faster. Just to clarify, I really cannot accept people to be late for any outing cause I ever left by my mum forgetting to fetch me many times and I cried without able to do anything. She said: "you wait me here okay? mummy is going to fetch you at this time" but she always forget about it and left me alone. I'm scared of waiting! I'm scared that you guys wouldn't be appearing.. You guys will forget about me T.T

BUT... In fact, how many times did I answered my parents or friends' phone calls when they need me the most? I also have ignored their calls for some reasons. What can I expect from them? After watching the video, I was like 'waking' up from a bad dream and I realized that life is to short for us to blame this, blame that. I admit that I really don't want to go to Aussie so early, I'm going to miss my family and friends here. But well, since I've already decided, I guess I just have to move on with my plan. Before today, I always thinking of leaving cause I am really dissatisfied with all the things going on here.. Best friends making judgment of me without making clear of the real situations and some family problems.. So i presume that you guys might have to watch this video as well to get some ideas from it.. and here's the link: http://www.facebook.com/#!/video/video.php?v=378800632887&ref=mf I LOVE you guys =) ok, feel like vomiting aster saying this.. haha... a quote from myself: 我不应该责问，为什么爸爸总是不回家？至少我还有眼睛去观查他。我不应该责问，为什么妈妈打包的菜不吃？至少我还有味觉去品尝它。我不应该责问，为什么家里总是吵吵闹闹？至少我还听得见。我应该责问自己的是。。。生活那么完美，为什么我还在埋怨？

getting balder than ever

2010-07-23T05:13:00.000-07:00

As everyone knows, i shaved my hair for the sake of getting donation for the SCCS (Sarawak Children Cancer Society) and ridiculously, i haven't update this to my blog until now, which is.. 2 months after being a botak girl! However, i'm never gonna forget the day i went bald - 16th May 2010 (Teacher's Day) and the next day was an accounting test. It's a day which is way more important than my wedding day.. Cause, you know... Divorce is so common in this 21st century and people like me might kahwin at least twice.. Since i'm so popular (Joking). Get back to the point. My facebook wall was flooded that day and people recognized me when i'm hanging out with my friends cause i'm bald though i did wear beany or wig. As long as you're not treating me like a monster as most of the people did, you are free to see my hair. The most question that I get is why would you want to do that? It's being treated a crazy action being done by a girl who cares so much about how she looks. Well, I have no idea. I just know that I almost cried when I looked at the children who are having cancer and they have to be facing the fear of getting hair lost. Just imagine that you actually realized that your hair is getting less and less when you're looking at the mirror ever morning when you wake up. I guess it's a horrifying experience and so, I decided to go bald and just wanted to send a message to those children that getting bald is nothing to be scared of cause i'm doing it with you guys.

So that's the first reason and the second reason was my private reason. My aunt, who is pretty much playing the role of my second mother was having a terrified experience of getting cancer. I am really really regret that I didn't care about her really much when she's getting this disease, I didn't call her up regularly to ask about her condition and I only appeared once at the hospital - few days ago before her death cause i'm scared! I really don't know what to say when she's crying besides me. I'm scared of see-ing her hair lost, i'm scared of see-ing her waking up from bad dreams and all those suffering that I'm never gonna understand. I just feel that i'm useless for there to accompany her. I wanted to visit her for the second time but then i didn't... Cause I need to do my revision for SPM and she passed away that day. That's a HUGE regret in my life and I don't wish to see more people who need to leave this world unwillingly. So i've decided to shave my hair and try to get some donations for those children cause they might be having some financial obstacles and stuffs for their medical fees. My mum said that my aunt don't dare to sleep that night cause she's having a bad dream that she's going to leave all of us and she was holding her hand really tight and said she hasn't ready for all these. Where am I that time? Reading my fucking books? I didn't even went for her funeral. I hope that she knows that i'm doing this not just because of helping the children and create awareness among the public, i'm doing this for HER too and this is all I can do to at least cover some of my guiltiness. Let's move on to the next reason, I wanted to get popular obviously so that I can know a lot of leng zhai who I haven't discovered yet. Just kidding, I wonder why I always wanted to joke while thinking of something sad. Siao cha bo maybe...

And for the rest, just let the pictures talk =)

everyone in my life is fake

2010-04-24T21:22:00.000-07:00

When you're encompassing with some problems.. You will automatically know which of your friends or family members are fake.. "Fake" means they are like.. Never existed in your life before but you thought they were! I can't wait for next year to come.. Where I can start my own new life and leaving all those fucking problems here.. What for that I’m still staying in Kuching? It makes no difference at all whether that I’m staying here or Melbourne.. Cause my leaving wouldn’t cause any unhappiness to anyone here.. And I’m sure about that..

I still can joke whenever that I was sad in the previous moments.. Even when my friend and aunty left this world.. But currently.. It’s outside of my capabilities to do so… my face expressions are numb.. I’m not getting angry easily nor getting happy easily.. All that they know is that I’ve get rid of my bad temper but they don’t even care whether I’m sad or happy… As long as they have their own new friends and spouses.. I am nothing but a stranger..

Do you know the feelings of crying but no tears coming out? It’s called numb! All the pressures that my mum gives me is already sufficient for me to commit suicide.. now.. friends problems again.. You say you are happy because I’m leaving on June next year instead of February… I was happy for your words indeed.. Now that I know.. everything is fake.. They never exist right?

I decided to talk alone here like a moron cause I don’t have any mood to do anything.. Law test is on next week and I’m still doing nothing today.. Gonna force myself to study really hard.. Now that I realized.. The best friends of mine are only BOOKS.. nothing more.. That’s what my mum wants me to do.. No good results cannot be her daughter right? I hate asking questions where I wouldn’t get any answers from it.. But what can I do other than this? There isn’t any ears for me anymore.. 2011.. come faster!

Now my condition is like this:

And.. I need this:

Well.. Jokes are desperately needed though you're sad.. haha

The Starting of My Degree LIfe

2010-03-18T06:20:00.000-07:00

I've waited for the college to reopen for quite a while already... Holiday was fun but I enjoy studying and socializing at the same time.. There wasn't any new update recently as school re-open means no outing for me except for lunch or dinner with my friends.. I'm not a good blogger i thought.. My blog is not as inspiring as others, not containing any deep feelings either.. Maybe I just meant to be a comedian since I was born? Laugh is the main thing for me to carry on my everyday life I suppose.. I laugh when i'm sad, when i'm angry, when i'm happy.. (Just being a weirdo).. This will be the most boring post in the universe as I really have no idea what to be sharing about here.. I just.. don't feeling happy today I guess..? All that I want to say is don't worry, be happy no matter what happened to you guys.. Life goes on.. Be it a happy life or sucky life.. It's all in your hands.. *cheers*

Happy Chap Goh Meh People!

2010-03-02T03:45:00.000-08:00

Chap Goh Meh.. The ending of Chinese New Year.. The ending of taking angpau.. The ending of firecrackers(finally!).. Me and my family never celebrated Chap Goh Meh before until this year! I was quite happy over it but we're celebrating without my dearest brother cause he's in Thailand now.. I miss him so much(as well as his presents! Shhh)..

Having a SUCKY Steamboat

2010-02-25T20:44:00.000-08:00

My friend, Ah Yew is going back to KL on this Saturday as his school is re-opening soon after Chinese New Year.. So, he's asking us for a steamboat meal before he leaves.. He decided that we should have our steamboat at the steamboat restaurant behind Hornbill which is near to Kuching High secondary school there.. As expected, the kepo Yew Ling keeps saying that maybe we should change our dining place to Hornbill over BDC there (as usual, he likes to be the head of our outing plans desperately!) He said we can have our steamboat meal with only RM18 and the drinks are included! Isit possible? I mean who doesn't know "Hornbill".. It's impossible to have such price alright? Since he says that he is so damn SURE about the price, so why not? I'm having terrible traffic-jam on the way heading to BDC as there will always be a lot of police checking over the drivers near my house area.. At least I can be sure about something, I've turn into a mature girl of 19 years old as the police always stopped me and saying that I look like one who don't have a license! Now, not anymore! =)

As everyone knows, traffic-jam is always making us feel like we want to say out the word "fu**" and I am so going to scold that guy if the steamboat doesn't cost me only RM18!
Clement is taking the foods non-stop and eat until he feels like vomiting...
Still taking the food non-stop! OMG
And he's a 'lasap sio' too! ><
See how disgusting is his bowl or something...
I love this though it takes me quite a long time to make sure that it's really cooked.. Hey, guys NEED this okay.. It's good for your... Erm.. The part that will make you proud..
Our favorite among all the food available.. This is so damn nice! I don't know what is Ah Yew's recipe for making his soup super disgusting.. Ewww

He's a prawn lover!
Here's a watermelon's lover.. see how much watermelon did she took...
I am somehow impressed with her!
Mine looks healthier =)
It makes us feel that this place concern about hygiene so much as everyone is having an individual steamboat boiling thing (I don't know what it's called) but actually it's not! Cockroaches are appearing everywhere! GOSH
Group photo without Agnes cause she's holding the cam.. My hair is messy because of the stupid big fan and the water sprayer stuffs...
This is it!
Now Agnes's in..

After we enjoyed our meal, we ended up paying RM26.80.. Yew Ling is speechless.. I always know that he's only good at bluffing and talk without caring about others' feelings... He's a stupid dumb, trust me.. I know it sounds bad but I talk whatever I like in my blog =) I also know that it sounds ridiculous if i add in *no offense* as somebody always do (so fake) The boss/manager/supervisor or whatsoever charged us with more expensive price as he's saying that we were wasting over the foods but how can he expects us to finish the leftover spoil foods? He said that he will check if the foods are really spoiled and will give us 5% discounts.. We waited there for some quite time and he just ignored us.. What a "great' place as suggested by Yew Ling.. People often ignore us because we look '19'!

Starbucks and 'Ma Zhong' Park with my BFF's

2010-02-24T03:49:00.000-08:00

Gonna start my post with pictures this time.. Guess you guys wouldn't want to waste your time reading all the 'loso' things..

Spend 2 Ringgits to let the fishes to splash waters on us.. They just get too hungry.. poor things..

See how loving we are..
Xin Yi wants to try some fish's foods too...
Feed feed feed =)

'o lang' is kicking the ball...
Why are my eyes closing? Too dizzy already isit?

She wants to treat the fishes with Starbucks' coffee...

Zheng He! By the way, who is that?

Copying Zheng He...
Welcome to Malaysia!

Aiseh.. Xin Yi's becoming Miss Sarawak soon...

One busy jogging, one busy drinking...

Gonna throw our problems away as how we are throwing these bags...

I like the environment here... It makes me feel so calm...

Enjoying the water splash sounds is making me so calm and feel like i'm away from the city... That's why i like to go near the beaches, lakes, ponds, or even pools since i was small..

Today Yvonne is asking me and Xin Yi to meet at Starbucks as we are not having 'girls talk' for a long time already... We three should have lots of things to share about as we usually can talk non-stop when we meet each other... We started the conversation by talking about our friends and was quite sad cause many of our couple friends are breaking up lately and now only left Yvonne and Lesley.. I realised something.. I was too selfish.. I thought if all my friends are staying single like me, i would be happy cause they will have more time for me but actually i was wrong.. I feel sad for them as well.. And i hope that she and Les can be together forever... Seeing them two in such condition as today really making me feel like want to help them out but there's nothing much that I can do.. I was very happy that Yvonne is willing to spend her afternoon talking her problems with us but i do hope that she will spend some times for Les as well.. Sincerely... Today is a really fun day hanging out with them at Starbucks and taking a walk at Ma Zhong's Park but my health is making me quite suffering.. I didn't tell them because I don't want them to worry about me.. I just see two shadows whenever I walk but i try to take all the fun pictures and joking with them.. I really hate it cause i don't like being unconscious suddenly and when I wake up, I find myself lying at the hospital's bed like before.. I don't know what is happening to me lately.. I just feel really dizzy but i never want to go to the hospital again.. I decided not to go for a body check up no matter how.. I don't want to rely on medicines once again! I don't care what will be happening to me in the future.. All i know is I should have go through my life to the fullest and will not be regretting... Hey, am I writing any letter before I die..? Silly! Maybe i'm healthier than Barrack Obama! Well, who knows.. haha

Percy Jackson & the Lightning Thief with My National Service Friends

2010-02-21T00:01:00.000-08:00

I'm meeting with my National Service friends as Jin, my foster brother and also one of my NS friends is calling me everyday lately so that he can meet me... He's going to work on Sunday, so I decided to ask all of our NS friends to hang out together.. or perhaps.. to have a movie... It has been AGES that we are not meeting each other and I am missing them like hell.. I miss the moments when we were bathing and singing together, sleeping together, sharing each others' problems together and so on.. I treasure every bitter and sweet time with them so so much.. However, we seldom contact each other after several months due to our busy lives... Some busy working, some busy studying until they are willing to give up their beloved.. Okay, it's me.. =X We watched Percy Jackson and the Lightning Thief... It is AWESOME! So i suggest this movie to you guys.. Not suggest, you guys should really watch this movie! Just spend your 10 ringgit... It's really worthy... At first we wanted to watch CNY movies as they are quite a number of CNY movies which are quite funny and suitable to watch now as it's CNY babeh! But because of CNY, MBO is super full so i watch this movie as suggested by my brother earlier.. And no regretting at all.. *cheers* =)

One important thing: the main character (Percy) of the movie - Logan Lerman is damn CUTE!
I only took two photos of my NS friends.. They are super camera shy.. I can only take their photos secretly.. ><

My ah kor and Cat... They look like paikia cause i took this photo secretly...
Soon Ying - another paikia look's girl..

Due to the really few pictures i have for this post, I'm gonna show you my modeling photos.. (starting to be vain again)

Fifth Day of CNY With My Secondary School's Friends

2010-02-19T04:28:00.000-08:00

I had a fun day with my secondary school's friends.. I thought today would be more boring if compared to that day when i went out with my college's friends but it turned out to be super fun! Maybe it is because that we don't have any couple between us and make us feel comfortable and free to talk anything among each other.. Having any too sweet couple in my outing group would make me feel really uncomfortable.. Like.. That day.. I really hate it when i was talking to my friend and she ended up turning away and playing with her boyfriend.. Seriously.. So, as a summary, my visiting journey with my secondary school's friends is really fun and it's all about EATING and increasing our calories! OMG... The most important thing that I realized is I will avoid going out with my friends who have a partner in the groups so that we can play more happily..

My brother says: "You should wear this if you're going to gamble!" Huat lah!
I only took one photo of our gang.. Cause Agnes's house is big enough for all of us to sit and talk together..
Two sweet mushroom heads..

Natasha's mother art work.. The whole family knows ARTS! Don't play play...
Take a break, have a Kit Kat.. Thanks to Ah Yew for bringing my favourite chocolate.. =)

After all the houses visiting, we're going to Clement's house for Barbeque! Barbeque sounds nice right? But think of the calories.. The three layers fat pork, lamb meat, nuggets, hot dogs, beer.. OMG!

The classic carbonate drinks.. My grandma's time drinks.. So nice leh!

This is the first time i learn how to use this tool to open it up.. Lame right? By the way, that's not my hands..

Eating time! Nat always want to look more 'obvious' than the others when i'm taking photos.. lol
Clement's father be the chef of the night but then grabbed by Nat them.. Those kepo ones.. haha.. Ming Ying is taking the foods non-stop.. She ain't afraid of getting fat... Cause she's going to be a sports teacher soon!
Me and Nat cutting the lamb meat.. It's energy consuming!
We will eat until we really feel like vomiting.. Trust me..
Roland, the black guy says: "faster faster! my hands are burning!"
Me and Nat.. Two 'tua pui zha bo'...
Yam Sheng!
Aiyer~ Clement's head is spoiling the whole picture!They always disturb her by saying that teachers cannot drink alcohol but Red wines are good for our health what..

But still... I prefer Beers more.. That's why i'm having 'beer stomach'.. It looks fat but it's hard when you press it..
Clement's idea.. Warm up the marshmallows and when they are melting, quickly put them into your mouths... Then you will go like mmmm mmmm mmmm!
We are going for an easy way to make them melt faster! Can't wait to put them into our mouths! Yummy~

Group Visiting With Friends on the Fourth Day of CNY

2010-02-17T05:39:00.000-08:00

I usually get along with my friends after the third day of CNY.. But this year is going to be a busy and tiring new year as now I have college's friends, secondary school's friends and other friends.. Last few years i was only mixing with secondary school and tuition centers' friends.. Today I'm going out with my Swinburne's friends.. It was quite fun but really tiring.. And some things also happened which make me felt super annoying.. We took some photos at Xin Yi's house.. I asked her to join us earlier but she ended up going out with her friends.. =(

She's a crazy Hello Kitty's collector.. Her room is FULL of them and making her room so cute!

(I like Spongebob more)

These 3 crazy girls are getting so happy after they were being molested... (Yvonne, Me, Xin Yi)
They are trying to get more guys to have sex with them? JOKINGTrying on her Hello Kitty's phone..

Leng lui is taking a long period of time to make sure that her make-up is perfect.. I'm a piece of shit if i'm going between her and Yvonne.. Trust me...
3 vain girls.. See that Xin Yi, carrying Hello Kitty's umbrella some more.. So cute..
Malaysia's next top super models (in our dreams).. The picture is blur.. Maybe this is the shitty camera as described by Xia Xue...
If you're going Xin Yi's house and you are not sure which one is her room.. This is.. OBVIOUSLYI really like Xin Yi's little brother.. So CUTE! He is the one standing there.. I knew Willis could be a good father(they look like father and son).. =)

Sweet la sweet la.....
We gamble at Lesley's house.. I don't know why i never win money in 21 game.. Sienz.. Every year is the same...
We are totally PHOBIA with pizzas... TOTALLY~

Second Day of Chinese New Year

2010-02-15T04:54:00.001-08:00

Today would be the last day for me and my family members to visit the relatives' and parents friends' houses... Tomorrow our job is only to wait for my grandmother them to come over and taking angpau.. hehe.. Maybe I'm going to ask my parents out cause tomorrow is their last day for Chinese New Year's holiday and i don't allow them to touch anything from their office! Today is such a tiring day.. I don't know since when visiting is becoming a tiring thing to me.. Maybe because that I'm becoming mature and mature each day..? Or because of I'm having a period? =X

The day starts with the vain me.. Girls usually take a lot of photos during CNY.. Cause they usually get 2 more kilograms after CNY! Like me... =(

We went to a friend of my daddy's house.. His house area is quite okay but the furniture and the 'feng shui' things are truely expensive and he's having 3 cute little grandchildren...

This is the smallest grandchildren of him.. When you touch this baby's ears, you feel like they are dropping! Quite scary... babies are always so fragile.. I don't really dare to touch them..
He is very cute and tiny.. Haven't reach his one month birthday...

My mom says to the mother, daughter-in-law of my daddy's friend: Since that you have 3 beautiful kids already, sure you feel satisfied for them but kids are hard to take care of...
The woman replies: Huh? 3 kids only? Not enough! I want 4 or more than that!

OMG! Pengsan.. This world still have such '...' woman.. Should I say stupid? Nope..! If every female think like me, then Chinese would be extinct.. And female would be losing their function as giving birth machines! I am so not going to be one of those women.. hmph...

Little tortoises.. I like tortoise! I ever have 5 tortoises... But I need to let them living with the nature when they grow up.. (Say until like they are my children..) ><

Here's my loving brother who likes all sorts of animals.. My cousin's dogs just can't stop barking.. So irritating and my cousin said that that was the first time his dogs stop barking and waving their tails to a stranger.. And also the first time they never bite a stranger! Scary right? My brother should really consider follow the footstep of Steve Irwin!

Chinese New Year VERSUS Valentine's Day?

2010-02-14T06:22:00.001-08:00

A cycle of 50 years has come to 2010... The first day of Chinese New year is happening to be on the same day with Valentine's Day... For single people like me, we will feel very happy for this year's Valentine's Day cause all the Chinese couples around the world might have no time for their partners or having difficulties of how to manage their time equally for their family members and their boyfriends or girlfriends.. "So Sad! HAHAHA!" So mean.. But if Valentine's Day is occurring on another day, it reminds us that we are all alone.. So, the people in a relationship: think about us too! According to the News, there are only 49 couples getting married today but usually there will be hundreds over couples getting married (the graveyard for any loving couples) on Valentine's Day.. That's a good choice that they choose to celebrate Chinese New Year with their family.. So stupid lah, i mean for the ones getting married at this event.. Sure you have to wait for so many people to get your turn to register and.. What is the special thing of getting married on the day so many people is getting married? Duh~

To prove to you guys that Chinese New Year > Valentine's Day as i have mentioned during my earlier post, I have done a very small and non-effort the so called research.. The result is: 12 people voted for Chinese New Year, instead there are only 4 people voting for Valentine's Day... So, Chinese New Year is beating down Valentine's Day! Hooray for the single people...

Bye Bye, Valentine

I'm not trying to be mean here... But just think about it (for the people in a relationship).. Aren't you having "Valentine's Day" everyday in your life? Valentine's Day doesn't really matter to you but family does.. Care about your family members more than your partners... I hate those of my friends who ignore their family and friends when they have a boyfriend or whatsoever lesbian or what... When they are about to break up, they are crying in front of you and blah blah.. Think about what have you done for the people around you, you are not living in a world that consist of you and your partner only, dumb.. And also those friends who act sweet in front of me.. You should really care about how i think cause i'm single and.. DUN KEK ME... Know you very 'bahagia'.. And think about those people who their boyfriends have left this world, they are not happy at all during Valentine's Day.. So you should really consider stop acting sweet in front of them.. and me! ..If you are reading this! Joking, don't be scared... Unless you think that i'm saying you.. haha! In my opinion right, all guys are just trying to find a girl to accompany them cause they feel lonely and their hormone is growing crazy.. Don't be stupid and think that they love you.. Remember, we are just 19.. Stop thinking about marriage or forever love.. Duh... Okay, i should really stop it here, I will be writing non-stop...

Stop starring at my big boobs! Joking...Just being vain here... My first day of CNY's dress.. Trying to act like 'guai kia' in front of my relatives today...

My aunty don't know how to use this toothpicks' case.. While she's studying how to use it, i suddenly think that it's cute..
My another aunty's antique's shop...

I go like: Hey daddy, these few old pictures are selling one hundred something per picture leh! So expensive, confirm no one would spend their money like that...
Suddenly a stranger's voice goes like: These are antiques! (It's my aunty's husband! So embarrassing!)
To cover up my 'sia soi-ness', i replied: Oh really? No wonder people offer high prices for them! really nice eh..

OMG!!!

My brother says: See the 'kam' blackspots! They look like my face! Feel like pinching it!" SWT

After visiting my aunty's house.. We're going to CI YUN to 'pay a visit' to my dearest aunty (I miss her really really much!), grandma, granpa, uncle... I miss there a lot.. That was a place for us to obtain our knowledge about Buddhism and all the sweet memories there suddenly rushing through my mind at that moment when i stepped in.. I miss the laughter, performance and the teachers there.. I miss Soon Ying, Jin Jin, Siaw Chian and Kevin them... And i also thought of... How Kevin is living at the other world...

'mian mian shi fou, ren ren ci bei' such a 'chim' sentence...

My aunty and my ancestors are here.. Here's my daddy's back...
We're going upstairs after that...
My 'engtau' brother...
Containing all the sincerity of the people...
There's my mom and another unknown...
The wind is blowing up my dress and makes me look like an overweight girl (p.s. I have an average BMI! *proud*) The reason why i took the picture here is because we have a group photo here.. I really miss them a lot, the National Service's gangs...

The BEST Reunion Dinner I Ever had =)

2010-02-13T03:20:00.000-08:00

I am so happy that I have a "Chinese New Year feel" for this year.. Erm, how to say.. Maybe my parents did spend out most of their times for us.. And we're eating together this year.. And I'm having a lot of fun cleaning and decorating the house with my brother though it's a tiring process.. And... so many AND cause it's an unexplainable feeling.. I just feel excited about this Chinese New Year.. I don't know why...

Now, I will provide you with some guides of how to cook spaghetti.. It's the first time for me and my brother to cook it.. So, it does consume quite some time for us..

First, you may need some mince meat, chicken stock, Prego Pasta sauce, an egg, hot dogs, big onions, Spaghetti (of course).. There are still some more ingredients that i forget to take picture of... (see, I definitely have the chef look.. eh hem)

Last but not least, the Extra Virgin Olive Oil (like me, extra virgin) aka EVOO...

To have a delicious spaghetti, you must first make the meatballs as delicious as possible.. (Tip: adding corn flour, black pepper, an egg, and some salt to the mince meat)
And also the EVOO to make it smooth...
Then, get ready to get your hand super oily and dirty that make you desperate to wash it but you can't after all! (notice: that's my brother's fatty hand)
Then, you will have to boil them but just boil them until 50:50 otherwise they cannot absorb the super yummy Prego sauce at the end of the making of sppaghetti!
After that, cook your spaghetti and spread them like the picture below:
You can chop the small onions and fried it to be put on top of the spaghetti to make it smells good.. CHOP CHOP CHOP!
This is a demonstration of how you can cook both ingredients at the same time.. Caution: Professional cooking style, Do not do it for anyone at anytime and anywhere...
After the spaghetti is fully cooked, rinse it with cold water immediately to make it super 'Q'..
Then, fried the hot dogs and big onions together and mix it with the cooked pasta sauce and meatballs until you get something like the following picture, or else you can throw them to the rubbish bin...
Testing time... OMG! So damn tasty! Not bluffing.. You guys should follow my recipe! Trust me~

After cooking the spaghetti, I was going through my first car washing experience... I'm such a bad daughter... I already started to drive after Form 5 and today is the first time i wash my own car... Sure my car hates me very much.. Dear car, I decided to wash you cause i'm going 19 this year and i don't want to be laughed by my friend cause I don't know how to clean you.. Don't be too happy!

See.. I look so serious...

I washed it until amazingly CLEAN...In a perfect condition to be driving out during CNY... Confirm...

This is the prove.. I know i look awful here.. But im not editing all my pictures.. Unlike other blogger okay.. And it also impossible for me to make-up when I have to wet myself.. So i look like this:
Now, it's my daddy's car turn...

Besides having the spaghetti, we also have a steamboat meal.. We add in some chicken stock before pouring all the ingredients in..

Got vegetables also.. Healthy eating habits...

My little brother's 'art work', the hot dog+ fish balls + vegetable = penis

Finally, the reunion dinner comes to an end.. We have the tropical fruits desert.. Happy Ending~ =)

Here's another crazy video of my brother who's going too excited for Chinese New Year... Lastly, I wish you all have a great CNY and I'm sure that everyone of us will have a better year for this year.. Happy Tiger Year.. Opps, Tomorrow is the first day of Chinese New Year.. Gotta do my mask and nails! Bye!

Cleaning the House & Buying Ingredients With My Brother

2010-02-12T06:15:00.001-08:00

I was planning to buy all the ingredients by myself cause i expect nobody would be as free as me.. Surprisingly, my brother says that he can accompany me to buy them and he will be my driver.. So we went to Everrise at BDC after we cleaned the house together.. I was sweating a lot cause cleaning curtains is not an easy job... yeah yeah~ I'm losing my weight... *si ai bin*

After washing it, my house looks like haunted house as we always can see from the ghost movie

After all the washing, ironing and hanging.. The result is just so NICE!

So, we are going for our buying ingredients' journey after our house is so spic and span (i thought..) It was so much fun... I definitely looked like an old ah ma holding a basket and choosing for foods...

To buy Pasta sauce, Prego is always the BEST choice =)

This cabbage vegetable thing.. looks quite cute for me..
We bought some bird's eggs for the steamboat.. mmm mmm mmm.. YUMMY~
Here got tans of steamboat ingredients.. Don't know which to choose... All look so delicious..
I wanted to buy one of these.. So CUTE! but my brother said "not good to your health!" =(

I thought this thing looks super cute and when we eat right.. We will definitely feel like eating more.. BUT my brother said 'wtf? It's so disgusting okay?' DUH!
We went to buy our next day's breakfast at Taka after that... We are going to buy some bread and then toast it and eat it with mushroom soup!

See these tortoise buns! So damn cute...

We bought so many ingredients from Everrise.. I'm sure that tomorrow's 'Tuan Yuan Fan' is going to be so damn delicious~!
Finally, I have a Chicken Egg Cheese Burger for my supper.. (fei po's main characteristic: having supper that will be making us damn fat every night) It's really really delicious~!

When we were on the way going home, there were lots of traffic polices and this is how you should learn from my brother to alert the ah beng or ah lian's drivers who drive without knowing what is LAW when there is any police.. JENG!

Preparation for Chinese New Year's Reunion Dinner

2010-02-11T18:53:00.000-08:00

Tomorrow me and my whole family will be sitting together to eat at the dining table.. So excited about it as i always eat alone there and 'dining table' are two very lonely words for me.. My mum told me that she might be busying over her work and i was really upset.. As i am Devy, i am so going to buy all the ingredients needed for steamboat, spaghetti and mushroom soup.. perhaps? ALONE... Since no one is free in this family except me.. I shouldn't complaint over here.. I SHOULD really do this.. Who knows i might be the Chef of my family huh? I think they wouldn't disappoint me cause everything is done for their dinner right? These are what they are going to be seen on the dining table (phewit! not as delicious as these of course):
As every girl usually does... Chinese New Year is just an event or excuse for them to shop for more clothes and masks to make them look super 'leng lui' on CNY but becoming 'fei po' again after CNY... So do I... Okay, i admit it... I bought several masks from variety of brands to see which brand makes my face smoother, fairer and.. make me feel alive? I will recommend to you from all the masks below after i become the 'hamster of the experiment' and i will also stick to that brand of course:

Next post coming up: Chinese New Year Vs. Valentine's Day

I am going to tell you some interesting facts about both of the events and PROVE to you that Chinese New Year > Valentine's Day.. haha!

Although i support CNY & totally oppose Valentine's Day, this thing really cute le.. haha

But I hold to my stand that this one nicer cause I'm watering it everyday! haha

Accompany My Friend to Study

2010-02-10T04:29:00.000-08:00

I went to Bing at Padungan branch on the next day after the Wow Book roadshow was finished with Suk Yee, Yvonne and Lesley.. We accompany Suk Yee to study for her Accounting.. I also get the chance to receive my salary.. I get RM200 something for the week.. Yay..? haha.. The MAIN purpose should be teaching her Accounting but we all ended up playing with the crazy photos shooting.. erm... Actually it's expected... haha.. We've done a lot of crazy stuffs... Here's another link.. Cause I don't know what is happening to my stupid blog... I can't upload any photo or I can only upload limited photos.. By the way, Facebook is my second blog.. I can say that as well.. cause I upload every moment of my life into my Facebook's albums.. http://www.facebook.com/home.php?#!/album.php?page=2&aid=44599&id=1033788626

Finding A Holiday Job To Spend My Boring Holiday

2010-02-10T03:52:00.000-08:00

Swinburnians are having a long period holiday FINALLY... I am so happy that I can finally relax myself after finishing so many stressful exams and assignments... But then I suddenly feel very boring and it's impossible for me to shopping everyday right? My mum would kill me off.. So, i decided to find a job for myself... And.. i finally worked at Mal's shop for only 3 days... A horrified experience, so just skip it.. 'HAHA'... After i quiting the job, Cindi is asking me to go to work as WOW book promoter for only 7 days.. My brother said "it's better for you to work for a roadshow as when you feel like quiting, it already comes to an end".. I was like.. wtf...? But what he said is true also.. haha.. So i worked as one of the Wow Book promoters at The Spring for 7 days.. I didn't expect it to be so fun... I dun feel like im working, it's like playing everyday with Cindi, the supervisor and all the bosses.. We all get so crazy.. Then the clowns for the events there, meeting with Kenny Sia (my favourite blogger), making new friends... All these things make my working experience so so fun and unforgettable.. And... Amazingly, you'll get really really satisfied and contented when you sold out a book.. Not bluffing at all.. It's not the commissions that matter.. It's the contenting feeling and doing charity that make me feel like... 'I am so going to PROMOTE it to everyone'.. haha.. Actually there are still a lot of photos taken.. This page would be too messy if I upload them all.. So follow this link if you feel like want to take a look at it.. http://www.facebook.com/home.php?#!/album.php?aid=49328&id=1033788626

This is what I've been selling for one week (charity discount book)

Photo with Kenny Sia...

We forced the clown to make them for us.. nice right? haha

This clown very bad one.. He always disturb the kids..

Happy NEW year? or SAD new year?? how 2010 will be for my life?

2009-12-31T02:15:00.000-08:00

So many friends asking me out to countdown for new 2010 year... But i rejected all of them... I didn't mean that they are not my best friends BUT all i want for my new year eve is both of my most important friends, Xin Yi & Yvonne... Nevertheless, they are not thinking of the same way with me... right? Xin Yi has her own friends to celebrate with & Yvonne has her own spouse... I free out my night for them as i think they will ask me out on new year eve night sincerely, not like others who only want to have fun and asking me out as their 'responsibility' (obviously)... Unfortunately, I am WRONG... They do not need me at all.. I am not angry with them but i am truly disappointed... really really disappointed... So, i decided to stay alone at home tonight... Funny huh? Everyone is so excited for the new year party, Travilion will also be fulled of people as how I evidenced myself for the previous years... Now i am alone because of them.. haha... I don't care anymore.. as 2009 & 2010 are the same for me.. It's all about the changing of a new calender... Nothing else... Life goes on as usual... and it doesn't matter for me.. All that I realised the day before 2010 year is... I will NEVER trust any friend... Many people thought that I am surrounded by friends all the time... The thruth is NOT... Why things always happen on the opposite way as how people see them? hmm...

too many OBSTACLES!!! Pls go away from me! ><

2009-12-26T05:27:00.001-08:00

It had been AGES that i didn't log in my blog... i forgot my password and i have to reset it just now.. >< too many things happening recently... & as usual for Swinburnians, we have to deal with a lot of assignments and exams.... so, i can only update it now...

After Yvonne case, my mood has turned down & lots of things are happening continuously on me and my best friend, Xin Yi.. In settling the misunderstandings between me & Yvonne, we have cried so hardly on that night.. Everyone thought that we have settled the whole thing and as long as Yvonne will have her happy vacation, everything will be alright... So i just followed what they wanted me to say & let it 'settle' on the surface... I didn't sleep well that night cause i was telling lies the whole night, honestly... I know nobody really cares about what i feel, so i just followed their wills to do what i dislike to do... This is just the small case if compared to what happened to Xin Yi & me these few days after Yvonne went to Korea...

Just the day after that night, i knocked a car accidentally... I was moody or sleepy while i was driving.. i cant really remember anymore cause i think i'm getting blurer & blurer each day... everything just get messed up.. i dont know what to do, how to do, what is happening....??? i have so many question marks in my head...

Obstacles just keep on happening to me... Just after my parents helped me to pay that guy who i knocked the car belongings to him, both of my brothers fight... i shouted at them to make them stop until i have no more voice, they just wouldn't listen to me at all! i still remember that las time when my parents went to shopping, they fight until i can see all the bloods around my house... i was crying alone mopping all the bloods... when i was small, my daddy also always beat us up... i dont understand, why my family members never talk well but they only can use physical attack to settle everything? I called my friend hoping him can come and fetch me but when his car was near my house, my mum ordered me to drive myself as she already felt so embarrased to be in this kind of family.. she said she doesn't want other people to know about this anymore... but i just knocked on a car the night before, I really need a lot of courage to drive again.. I didnt thought secondly and just grab the car key and tell my mum that i dont want to be in this family... i will leave as soon as i know how to earn money sufficient for the living of myself.. cause they never changed! i always hoping that they will change as time passes.. but why everything is still the same when i was small until now? by then i thought of all is my father's fault.. if not because of him, we wouldnt be suffering like this... if not because of him, i wouldnt dont dare to even think back my past memories... if not because of him, my mum wouldnt be thinking of divorcing & leave us last time... but.... dont now why... i feel so hurt when he shouted at the middle of the night, walk here walk there thinking of his works just to maintain our lives... i am very worry that he will get depressed because of this... i'm having nightmares that this family will broke some day... i do not want this to be happening on me! this is the nightmares that i am most scared with...

At the same day, i received a message from Xin Yi... Her shop was burned out... i was really really really worry about her and i dun even have time to think about my family problems... after i kept on persuading her, she finally agreed to go out with me n lesley... we were glad that she is willing to share her problems with us... she never dropped a tear for that case... she is the toughest girl i have ever met... i was so depressed to see her like that... i dont know how to help her but i can only talk about those craps which i dont even think can comfort her... i hate it when i see my friend suffering without anything that i can helped with... what should i do now... why so many things happening at once? God, do not forget that we are just 18 years old... how can we able to face with all those difficulties? especially Xin Yi, i do not want her to leave me by quiting Swinburne... she is my best friend ever! i really hope that everything will be okay after i wake up tomorrow.. okay...? haiz...

a fun presentation~

2009-10-29T02:29:00.000-07:00

Today, i have another group presentation with mia and tan wee once again... all that i can say is the presentation was the funniest presentation we ever present to other people... i was the first who went up to the front and when teacher asked me where my group members were, i pretended to be blur blur like that... after i prepared all the materials that we needed to use and also the slides, i play 'who let the dogs out' song loudly... Then, mia and tan wee started to catwalk to the front by hugging a dog soft toy... everyone was laughing hard at that time... along the presentation, we also make some actions and jokes to make our classmates laugh so that they would not be feeling bored during the long presentation.. however, parts of them were not paying attention during my presentation parts and i was quite upset.. so, i just briefly read through everything at the back parts.. i believe that no one will present well when there is nobody who listen to his or her speech including me... overall, it was a fun presentation though.. there are some pictures of me and my group members... enjoy... =)

complicated feeling rushing through my mind~

2009-10-25T01:18:00.000-07:00

Think my blog is going to grow spider web soon.. I'm trying to keep it updated but i just can't spend my time for blogging as there were lots of assignments & exams for the past few busy weeks... Today, I promise myself that I MUST update it no matter how.. i miss it too much.. Let me just summarise my feeling & things that were happening for these few days..

I don't know why that i'm started to think about my friend & my aunty just now... I just can't control my mind... maybe i was too boring...? I dreamt of them yesterday night.. weird right? So i thought... a person who leaves this world might not be forgotten after some while like the ending of a movie always does.. Instead, we will miss him or her even more as time passes... However, dream should be separated from the reality & i know bout that... Life just keep going on no matter how...

Today i received a message from Mia... she realised that her laptop has been stolen when she wake up after she was taking an afternoon nap upstairs of her house.. her house has been broke into by a burglary... she sounds sad but i don't know how to comfort her... all that i can say to her is that she is considered as the lucky one as she was not hurted by the DAMN burglary... she just passed her 18th birthday & this is happening to her now..

Today is Sunday right? i didn't even notice about it as everyday is the same day for me... weekends & weekdays make no difference to me... my family members wouldn't spend their time with me on any days.. for them, this world is about work & money... my heart felt pain when i saw all my friends' status stating that 'I have a great time with my family today!', 'Sunday is such a nice day for family', 'I will go out with my mum later'... bla bla bla.. all those are hurting words for me...

Anyways, i should also share some joyful moments of mine to you guys.. below are some pictures of Mia's 18th birthday celebration on last Friday night... we were having steamboat together at BDC... it was a fun night though...

I own YOU! =)

2009-09-12T06:05:00.000-07:00

As everyone knows, i'm a SPONGEBOB fans... haha... After i saw the KFC advertisement that they will give out spongebob toys, the first thing that i promise myself is that i want to go there on the next day! And.. i did it... i even bring home one of them... 3 more to go! hehe...

I still remember that it was very embarrasing when we went to get it... Me, Prudence n Yvonne waited outside until the shop opened... when the employees opened the door for us, we rush into it and Prudence pointed her finger at me and said" she wants spongebob" loudly... OMG... all of them were looking at me! haha... i chose the 'Crazy Eyes'... i enjoy looking at it's eyes spinning crazily...

Below are some insane pictures edited by my brother (you guys should try it too! =)):

Assignment Stress!!!

2009-09-09T06:44:00.000-07:00

It’s been a few days I didn’t create a new post.. As you all can see from the title… I am involving in some homework and assignment’s stress! Yesterday was the worst day I’ve ever had after Sem 2 starts… I was having my accounting class n I swear that I was paying FULL ATTENTION to the lesson… However, the stupid damn short chair was irritating me! I can’t even see what is in front of me… When I was started to complain about my chair to Yvonne, accounting teacher said to me “Devy, are you OK?? You are talking a lot since yesterday!” wtf?! I swear that I was paying full attention during the lesson and I don’t know why she says so… I was in blur at that moment.. My friend borrowed the sample answer from her after that to check whether her answers for the exercises are correct or not... After my friend finish her correcting, I borrow from her to check on mine also… Then she suddenly come and grab the answer sheet and said “don’t copy the answer before u do, you should have check your answer after you have done it..” I was really angry.. What’s wrong with her? I was trying my very best to make sure that I can do well for this subject… I admit that I am very very interested in account and the reason why I study at Swinburne is to follow up the accounting course for my degree, CPA… Is anything wrong with me? Haiz… I think I really need to ‘debate’ with her if she do that to me again… I’m not trying to go against her, I just want everything to be CLEAR between us… I’m not blaming on her, I just want to know what mistakes have I done!

Me, Mia n Twee continue to work on our marketing project proposal after class… We all feel so stress as the due date is on the other day… At the moments I feel really really ‘pek chek’, I know that I say out something bad with my angry tone to some of my friends… I didn’t meant to say all those stupid things but I just can’t help it at that time! All the irritating things just go on and on and on that day! I want to apologize to all of them for letting off my anger on them.. SORRY guys!! =( I felt a bit better after we’ve done our proposal… I felt relieved! Below are some crazy pictures of my group members and me to release out stress… Enjoy.. haha…

Specially for Kevin Lai~

2009-09-02T06:44:00.000-07:00

The production of your video has finally comes to an end... It has been a hard work throughout it... Firstly, this is the first video i've ever made... I need my friends to teach me how to do it... Secondly, I can't find your photos elsewhere! I only have eight of your photos at the beginning as i collected them one by one... From Jo's profile, Clement's profile... I asked everyone on my facebook's friends list and also from my msn list but none of them have your photos! What should I do? I can't just simply produce a video of you with only eight photos... I finally gave up that night and i was off to bed... Amazingly, you came into my dream and tell me that Ying, one of your friend and also my friend have added you on friendster before, I can get your photos from her... So i tried, I really tried to ask her on the other day... She really have it! Then , i can save about thirty photos of yours... I knew that you are always be on our side... Jo also dreamt of you, isn't it? We can't see you, we can't hear you but we definitely can feel you...

You leave us at 23rd of August... But i can only post up your video for everyone tonight... Why do i need so many days just to produce a video? Is it because that i have too many homeworks to work on? Or is it because i can't find your photos? I also not sure about that... All that i am sure about is that I must finish the video tonight before 12a.m. as tomorow is Chinese Ghost Festival... You will sure come back and meet us... but the video's size is too big oredi! tik tok tik tiok! almost twelve now! what should i do? bless me Kevin! i want it to be uploaded fully before twelve! I WANT YOU TO SEE this video! i hope you can see it... 'ru guo wo bian cheng hui yi' by Tank (ur fav song)... =)

should I be happy or be sad?

2009-08-29T23:17:00.000-07:00

Today is the first day i started to become a blogger... I'm not feeling ok these few days so i figured out how can i express my feeling as I don't usually say out my true feeling to anyone... I thought blogging would be the best way to do so... My friend just passed away last Sunday... I can't sleep well for almost the whole week already... His images fill up my mind whenever i close my eyes... I still remember that there was a misunderstanding between me and you... I thought you were an irresponsible person as you didn't tell us what outfit should we wear while we have a dance performance on the next day but actually i misunderstanded you! I even say something bad to you... I want to apoplogize to you at that time but my ego have prevented me to do so... i don't even have the chance to say sorry to you... Now i want to tell YOU and the whole world that YOU ARE THE BEST DANCER EVER in our heart~! And.... I'm really really sorry for the misunderstanding... I went to your funeral that day... I can't believe that the one who sleep at there without moving is YOU! I prefer you to play and dance in front of us and making all of us laughing at your action.. I don't want you to sleep forever at there... Nobody wants you to be like that! I still cannot believe that you leave us without telling us anything... I guess God loves you more than we love you huh? Then, promise us you will be much more happier beside Him as i know that no matter how much tears i cry for you, you will never wake up and play with us anymore... I can only put the picture above in here as I don't want anyone who see ur photo will feel sad....

I cut my hand accidentally just now... I don't feel any pain... I'm not afraid of the blood... I don't look for a plaster immediatly... Like I always do... How can this little blood and this little pain be compared to your's when you were involve in the car accident? Blood will be NOTHING to me from today on.... I will not be scared of blood anymore...

Today is also the first day i become my parent's driver after i get my license... When my mom says she wants me to be her driver today, I feel very happy though i didn't reply her anything... My parents are always very busy with their work all the time.. almost 24 hours from Sunday to Monday... When she says she wants me to be her driver, i can know that how important am I in her heart that she is willing to spend her time and go out with me by putting her works beside... I always say that I love my grandma more than i love her because she cares about her works more than me and my grandma always beside me when i sick and when i feel down... She cried when i say that to her... Sorry mum, i know that you always care about me... i know you work so hard just to provide me the best environment to study and become a successful person in the future... i will never blame on you from today on instead i will be with you whenever you need me... Daddy, i promise myself that i wil forgive you fully... i know you ever done a big mistake and mum nearly leave you and this family but i'm going to forgive you now... just now you hand me a plaster without saying anything to me... i know you care about me, it's just that you don't know how to say out your love towards me... Now, mummy already forgive you and i will forgive you too... I want to be your driver forever, mum and dad...

Guess im too 'lo so' huh? all i want to say is "when ur parents, ur friends, ur love ones or anyone around u ask u to drive carefully before u drive, they really mean it... dun think that they r talking craps or think that they say that to u just becoz that is their routine responsibility... enjoy... of hearing it everyday while u have the chance to do so!" =)